Archive for April, 2010

Snippets of Spring

April 30, 2010

I love spring so much!  I have so many pictures that I want to post–but here are just a few to give you a snippet of our life.  Spring Break was fun–we stayed here mostly because I was in Radiation every day (for just 20 minutes a day, so not too bad)—We tried to do lots of fun stuff like a movie one day (How to Train a Dragon–awesome movie!), Dan Nicholas Park in Salisbury (picture below), a “night-away” at the Embassy Suites given to us by  my parents (we brought board games, swam in the pool, took a walk, stayed up late watching tv and ate a huge breakfast!)  and of course, plenty of time at home just playing school, playing outside and hanging out.  Here is a picture of all 3 kids at the park…  are they cute or what?

Bailey played soccer again this spring.  She likes defense and goalie and toward the end of season, she really began to focus on goalie.  She was on a team with lots of friends from her school.  Thanks Amy and Lauri–her great coaches who are also her Girl Scout Leaders.   Thanks for investing so much in our daughter!

Christopher–at the park.  He has always liked doing “poses” for the camera. Even when he broke his arm and required surgery (and lots of x-rays over 3 months)–he would pose for the xray machine and smile!

Luke–at the farm with his preschool class.  There’s just something about a spring day, pretty green grass and a smile like that!

“From the fullness of His grace we have all received one blessing after another.”  John 1:16

Sexy

April 23, 2010

Every morning, I go to Presbyterian Hospital for my daily radiation appointment.  As I walking out the front door (with tears in my eyes–read below)—I passed some of my  “friends” going in.  This is a lady in her 6os  who is a cancer patient also receiving radiation.  Her daughter brings her in every day. Just so you get the picture better, I will tell you that this woman (the patient) is a pretty large  lady.  Anyway, she had a white t-shirt today that said SEXY in big pink and black letters.  Amidst my tears, I just had to give a little chuckle.  It actually made my day to see her in that shirt.  (anyone else in that shirt probably would have annoyed me!)    Cancer patients (at least the ones I have met) are some of nicest people who have such a great perspective on life and most have (or have acquired)  a sense of humor.

30 minutes before crossing paths with “Sexy”….

There is another couple I sit with every day in the waiting room  at radiation (husband comes with his wife–another couple in the 60s) Today-they were telling all the nick-names they have given to people (doctors, nurses, etc.)–Some to their face, some they would not dare!  A couple of them made me laugh out loud!    He said they would come up with one for me some day–I doubt I even want to know!

There is another VERY sweet lady (around 60 als0 and reminds me a bit of my mom)–her assigned time was right after me, so I’ve seen her and her husband every day. She sits in a wheelchair b/c she’s in a lot of pain.   She was recently diagnosed with Stage 4 breast cancer– her last radiation treatment was today—and she’s moving on to Chemo.  I didn’t know it was her last day (The past few days she hasn’t been feeling well, so we hadn’t actually talked)   So, after my radiation, we talked in the hall–her sweet husband was taking her picture.  She was excited that today was her last radiation—she was going to ring “the bell”–signifying that she’d accomplished this– so I started to cry—not sure really why, it all just gets to me sometimes.   I told her I’d miss seeing her in the hallways–we go to the same oncologist office, so hopefully I’d see her.  I told her I’d pray for her, and I knew she could fight this!  She is very positive and is up for the fight!

When I was leaving, I saw her husband in the hall, so I hugged him  and told him I’d be thinking of him too and praying for him because I know how hard it is on husbands/spouses !  I told him I really admired the way he is so attentive  to his wife, etc.  Then he said “You know?  I count it as an honor.  She has taken care of me for 35 years!  Now it’s my turn.  It’s really a privilege.”

WOW!  See what I mean about perspective?

So, of course, I started to cry more.  So, I’m walking out of the hospital, literally wiping my face with my jacket.  I give my valet ticket (they valet all cancer patients’ cars) to the guy and sit down and wait.  A few minutes later, “Sexy”‘s daughter comes walking back outside to check on me.  How sweet!

So, here’s to all the husbands/spouses/caretakers.  Jerel has been so wonderful through/in all of this.  I am SO blessed to be his wife.  I’ll just have to get him a shirt someday—maybe not pink letters though!  I love you Jerel!!

Jerel’s half

April 20, 2010

I am so proud of Jerel– on April 10, he completed his first half-marathon.  This is what I’ve been calling it, although I’ve learned that all the “cool runner people” call it just a a “half”.

He began training for it right after Christmas.  He was running 2 miles then and he thought he’d never make it.  But each week, his distances got a little longer.   I am so proud of his determination and commitment to his goal!    Scott, a good friend (and an experienced “half-er”) ran with him.  Scott really helped encourage and motivate Jerel to finish well!

The kids and I (and my parents too) all met at the Finish Line down at Southpark.  We got there about 45 minutes before we saw Jerel…so we had the FUN chance to cheer in runners who we didn’t even know!  It was amazing seeing all these different people finish–some on their “last leg” and others running like they just started.  Most had a look of accomplishment, pride and joy as the approached the finish line.   When we saw Jerel (about 100 yards away), we were so happy–the kids started jumping up and down….and yelling GO DADDY!!

Hebrews 12:1-3 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.  Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.


4/13/2010

April 13, 2010

How am I doing?  I get this question all the time–and I am so thankful to have so many people who care about me–I am feeling really good–I’m on the back porch right now, on Jerel’s laptop (i’m so jealous of his mac laptop)– listening to some Lady Antebellum (i want to go back to american honey) and some brad paisley (i thought i loved jerel THEN!)—you only get those if you’re a country music fan–which i have become lately!

the kids are on the swingset, luke just fell off the swing and screamed his HEAD OFF (the neighbors totally love us!)–and i went out there and mentioned the word “popsicle” and it was like i hit a mute button. seriously, it’s crazy.  i just finished washing some strawberries (4/$5 at Teeter ends today)–it’s just a good day.*** (see bottom of post)

radiation is going fine. i go downtown every day for a session.  if things are running smoothly, i can be done (sign in, wait, change clothes, wait, have the radiation, change clothes again and leave) in 20 minutes….so literally i’m in car more than i’m in the dr. office.  i mentioned in my last post that i’m praying every time the radiation buzz goes off.  (3 sets of about 20 seconds each).  So, last week, I decided that I was going to start praying scripture–verses from the Bible.  To update you , I finished my “read through the Bible” back in March–it took me 8 months. Now, I’m going back through it to take notes on my underlines.  I’m developing a journal for my kids to have that will have all the stories/verses that i like and why.

Anyway,  i’m choosing scripture to pray during the actual radiation when i ask God to use this radiation to heal me.  I thought I’d maybe post of these in my blog, to help anyone who is going through something now–whether it’s cancer or something else.  Here was last week’s verses

2 Samuel 22:17-20  “He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters.  He rescued me from my powerful enemy from my foes who were too strong for me… He rescued me because he delighted in me.”

2 Kings 20:3 (Hezekiah praying in the midst of an illness)  “Remember O Lord, how I have walked before you faithfully and with whole-hearted devotion and have done what is good in your eyes”

SO, I literally pray these — it’s actually a pretty powerful feeling to pray scripture.

This Friday , I go back to my oncologist to just check in.  If I have any news, I’ll share, but otherwise, I have done 11 of 32 sessions.  So, I expect we’ll do some sort of scan maybe end of May to see where we stand.

****to end this post, i do know that i haven’t posted in a while– i just haven’t been in the mood to blog.  i have some mixed feelings about blogging right now.  i don’t want to be a “blogger bragger”— my comments up at the top of this post would lead you to think that i am a blogger bragger.    (friends who blog–don’t get me wrong, i like reading yours…i just know that sometimes blogs can begin to sound self-absorbed)   i ONLY write about the good things that happen or the “moments” that we have as a family- believe me, we have our “other moments too”  i just choose not to write about the day we were going to McDs and had to turn around and go home b/c our kids couldn’t get along, or the ways we feel like we fail or we’re ‘winging it’ with our kids-  etc.

so, here is why i blog ( to be clear, as mud probably):  I started this blog as a fun way to connect with friends and family who I don’t see often.  When I was diagnosed with cancer two years ago, honestly–people really do want to know how we are doing–physically, mentally, spiritually, etc.  SO, to ramble on–i use it to update people–it’s much easier to type it once than say it 200 times.  I use it to connect to other cancer survivors—-it’s possible to have a pretty normal life in the midst of this disease—the breast cancer statistics are Staggering (1 in 8?)–so some people I know will either get it or have someone they are close to get it—so maybe they’ll remember some of my journey?   I also want to be someone who lives out my faith.  I don’t want to go through all this for nothing–so if someone can read about my faith during this trial and grow in their relationship with God-  that is what I want!    Also, I do hope that we print this blog out someday so that my kids can have it.  (i’m not a journaler)—-i want them to have a record some of the FUN we have, some of those “moments”–and I want them to see how much i really do believe in God— (notice I said “believe” and “have” –the present tense is VERY intentional)

Do I think you want to read all about every little thing I write about?  No..I really don’t.  That’s why I am labeling the Health Updates–as UPDATES…..  OK, now that’s all off my chest–now I just might blog a little more.  I was feeling funny thinking some of you might be like… “Really?  I don’t want to read all that….”  🙂

That’s all for now—

Love,

Susan