This will be brief again, because I’m getting ready to head back to the hospital.
This morning Susan was admitted to the ICU after dealing with severe respiratory distress. Her breathing was really bad all night, and this morning her O2 saturation dropped into the 70s and her heart rate went very high. She had been very confused and basically incoherent for several hours. When this happened they took her straight to the ICU where she has been all day. She’s been pretty sedated there all day with a more heavy-duty oxygen mask and some drugs to help her get more comfortable. Our family is here. We don’t know what God has in store but it is clear now that she will not be coming home. The cancer has been so aggressive and is continuing to run rampant. Weeks, days, we do not know. We know, though, that it cannot take her heart, mind, and soul. I came home tonight to talk with the kids. They want to see her in the morning. It is so difficult – I can’t even describe it – but it is clear that God is with them like Susan.
Pray for her, the kids, our family, me – for comfort, strength, healing, peace.
I’ll update tomorrow. We love you all.
Jerel
Susan Law 
December 29, 2010 at 9:48 pm |
Oh man, my heart is heavy for you guys.
Praying.
December 29, 2010 at 9:55 pm |
I am praying for your comfort, strength, healing and peace for you and your entire family. It hurts to know you all are having to go through all of this! I’m so, so sorry!!
December 29, 2010 at 10:03 pm |
We love you. We are praying. We know God is holding all of you in His Mighty Hands.
December 29, 2010 at 10:09 pm |
Much love to you Jerel – God is definitely carrying you
& your family through this tough time!
December 29, 2010 at 10:14 pm |
Jerel, We are praying God’s peace on each one of you. You
all have run the race faithfully and kept the faith. All to the
glory of God. I can’t figure why it needed to be Susan. I have
never seen her that she wasn’t smiling. I will continue to bombard
Heaven with her name, bringing her before the Lord. Thank you for
loving her so completely.
December 29, 2010 at 10:20 pm |
We are standing in prayer tonight, in grief and heartache with you. All our love to you and the kids.
December 29, 2010 at 10:21 pm |
Thinking of you and praying for your whole family. We don’t understand God’s plans while on earth, but His plan is perfect and we have to trust in Him. Susan is so proud of you! You are a wonderful husband and father.
December 29, 2010 at 10:22 pm |
praying for you and the kids………especially for their visit with Susan. And praying for Susan’s comfort, peace and healing. Your grace in this devastating time is an inspiration to me and to everyone who reads about Susan’s story.
December 29, 2010 at 10:22 pm |
With very heavy hearts we are praying for all of
you.
December 29, 2010 at 10:30 pm |
Praying – Oh, dear Jesus – give them strength and wrap your arms around this precious family. They are yours.
December 29, 2010 at 10:31 pm |
I just learned of your family today and am heartbroken to
read this news as I have come to love your family through your
posts in just a few hours. May the God of Peace surround and
comfort all of you, whatever is to come. My prayers and thoughts
are with you. Susan sounds like a wonderful mother and you two are
obviously an awesome team.
December 29, 2010 at 10:46 pm |
We are praying!
December 29, 2010 at 11:25 pm |
Our hearts are burdened for your family, and we continue to
pray for you. What a blessing and inspiration you and Susan have
been to everyone who knows you. May God hold you and comfort you
and give you strength and peace.
December 29, 2010 at 11:28 pm |
When words are insufficient, prayers will have to bridge
the gap from our hearts to yours. With love and prayers…Haynes
and Michael Paschall
December 29, 2010 at 11:37 pm |
Susan has been such a witness to her Lord through all of
this ordeal. He will be faithful to you, her family and give you
grace above what you can’t imagine. I can’t believe Susan is so ill
but Her Lord will never never leave her or forsake you, Jerel. I
love Martha and Bill so much. I do know God’s ways are the best and
are right. I will pray for you and the children and all the family
as you watch and God that I have known the family and what Susan
has meant to all my family – Brent, Carrie, Nicole. My heart is so
very heavy but I try to keep my eyes on the cross of Christ and not
the circumstances. Thank you so much for your faithful postings
during this difficult times/
December 29, 2010 at 11:39 pm |
You have been in our family prayers for so long. Susan is
in such good hands. It seems as though her doctors have been
amazing, family has been wonderful, you have been working overtime,
and of course, God is with her.. and you. Love.
December 29, 2010 at 11:41 pm |
I continue to pray your peace and strength! I ask God to heal her in this side if Glory. I know that may not be His will; so ultimately I want you all to live in His perfect will. I continue to stand in the gap for your family. I pray Susan’s pain is minimal and your comfort maximized!
December 29, 2010 at 11:43 pm |
Love you guys …
December 29, 2010 at 11:47 pm |
Scott Utesch emailed us. We are praying.
December 29, 2010 at 11:52 pm |
You are all constantly in our hearts and prayers. Love
you!
December 29, 2010 at 11:54 pm |
You are an awesome family and we are overwhelmed with
sadness. We will be praying for the kids’ visit with Susan and
praying Is. 42:16 for all of you. We love you.
December 30, 2010 at 12:01 am |
My family prays for Susan, the children and Jerel…all of Susans family…I would wait all day for them to get your lines right Susan….sherrie
December 30, 2010 at 12:22 am |
Dear Jerel, I don’t know you but I know Mike Manahan. I
know how hard it can be watching a loved one deal with cancer. You
are in my thoughts and prayers. God looks over us and He will guide
you. I saw your family picture and you have three precious
children. Please believe me they will give you strength. My
grandchildren have have helped me in many ways when I lost my
husband. Sending my prayers your way, Mary
December 30, 2010 at 12:54 am |
Continuing to pray for comfort, peace, grace to accept God’s mysterious providence … Susan and Jerel are outstanding testimonies of God’s grace for all of us to witness. Love to you all!
December 30, 2010 at 1:41 am |
Keeping you and your family in my prayers!
December 30, 2010 at 3:24 am |
It’s 3:20am & I felt compelled to let you know someone is praying for all…
In His Grace,
Susan Rosenblatt
December 30, 2010 at 3:29 am |
It’s 3:20am & I wanted you to knpw someone is praying for you all right now…felt like I needed to share that with you.
In His Grace,
Susan Rosenblatt
December 30, 2010 at 7:54 am |
I woke up today with you all on my heart and prayed for
you. I will be praying throughout the day as well. – Mike
December 30, 2010 at 7:55 am |
Jerel, thank you so much for so faithfully posting updates.
I can only imagine how difficult it is to try to put things into
words. I am in constant prayer for all of you. My heart is breaking
for you all. You all are so loved.
December 30, 2010 at 8:19 am |
Lifting my prayers up for all the family.
December 30, 2010 at 8:20 am |
The Jonas family is incredibly saddened to hear the most recent news. We will pray for you all – that you feel the warmth, comfort, and prayers of others and the presence of God wrapping your family up and keeping you safe.
December 30, 2010 at 8:21 am |
Praying for God’s word to speak to you as you speak to your
children; for God’s people to comfort you and for God’s truth that
He is your rock and your fortress to strengthen you as you seek Him
as your refuge. We love you and your family, Jerel! We love Susan
and pray that she is free from pain and resting in her Savior’s
love and mercy. “The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield[a] and the horn
of my salvation. He is my stronghold, my refuge and my savior— 2
Samuel 2:22
December 30, 2010 at 8:23 am |
Wanted you to know that we are praying for you, Susan, and the kids.
December 30, 2010 at 8:25 am |
Jerel,
I will be praying for you and the kids this morning. I pray that positive things will come out of this visit. You have been so faithful to your vows to love “in sickness and in health”. I know Susan would do the same for you…. I am just sorry you and Susan have had to deal with this illness. We may not understand why this is happening, but we do know God’s ways are greater than ours: “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isaiah 55: 8-9) May you feel God’s faithful and mighty presence today.
December 30, 2010 at 8:41 am |
Praise be to the God and Father our Lord Jesus Christ, the
Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in
all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with
the comfort we ourselves have received from God. (2Corinthians
1:3-4) Praying for peace and comfort for all of you.
December 30, 2010 at 8:43 am |
Dear Law Family, I am Amy LePage’s Mom Lana and have met
all of you. I spent time with Amy last month and saw lovely Bailey
several times with Rebecca. I just wanted to say that my heart is
aching for all of you and I have no words but to say that I pray
God will keep his arms around your entire family and protect you
with his gentle love. Several of my family members have you in
their prayers as you travel this unknown journey. I hold your
family in the deepest of respect and believe that God will hold you
close to his loving heart.
December 30, 2010 at 8:46 am |
such a heavy heart today as we got home and woke up to read your blog…praying for indescribable peace for you all. We love you!
December 30, 2010 at 8:50 am |
Praying specifically for Bailey, Luke, and Christopher this morning as they prepare to visit their mom. “In the morning, O LORD, You will hear my voice;
In the morning I will order my prayer to You and eagerly watch.” Psalm 5:3
I pray that each of you would watch the Lord hold up the others, as you have already been seeing Him do, Jerel. That His presence and His peace would be unmistakable. Love Katie
December 30, 2010 at 8:59 am |
We are a praying without ceasing for your family. Our hearts are broken. We love you.
December 30, 2010 at 9:43 am |
I just learned about your family and your current
situation. I will be lifting your family up to our Heavenly Father
in prayer and will ask my Women’s Small Group to do the
same.
December 30, 2010 at 9:47 am |
I will definitely be praying for you and the children to
get thru this time of need. I will also be praying for Susan to
have comfort during this time as well. I pray that your family may
find peace in this time of need.
December 30, 2010 at 9:53 am |
Sending love!!!
December 30, 2010 at 10:14 am |
My heart is breaking for your family. I remember those
conversations with my children when my husband died…I have been
praying for you all day and will continue to lift you and the
children up to the Lord in the coming weeks and months.
December 30, 2010 at 10:20 am |
Bill and have been praying for you, Susan, and the
children. You and Susan have shown us incredible strength and
grace. I know this has only been possible because of your
faith.
December 30, 2010 at 10:34 am |
You all are so loved. Please convey to Susan how much we love her and your family!!! Jerel-my heart breaks for you.
December 30, 2010 at 11:03 am |
I am so very sorry and am praying fervently for you and
your family. Susan and I were in grad school together and I just
recently learned of her battle with cancer. Please know I will
continue to pray for God’s peace and comfort in the days
ahead.
December 30, 2010 at 11:10 am |
While you don’t know me, I have been keeping up with your
posts for some time now. I am a friend of the Hosse family. I just
wanted to let you know that I continue to pray for you, Susan and
your children daily. I was saddened to read your update this
morning and wanted to let you know that I am thinking about all of
you and praying for you all as well.
December 30, 2010 at 11:20 am |
Jerel – Brother my heart hurts for you. There is little
more that can be said. We will continue to pray for comfort,
strength, healing, peace…
December 30, 2010 at 11:33 am |
Praying for you all….
December 30, 2010 at 11:41 am |
I am praying for you and have also tried to spread the word
for prayer. May the God of comfort, comfort you in the midst of
your trials. May the Creator God recreate Susan’s body with no
signs of the cancer.
December 30, 2010 at 11:46 am |
Jerel~ I am praying for your family. I know that God can do
amazing things, and through Susan many have heard what a wonderful
heavenly father we have. She is an inspiration to us all. I hope to
be a witness to him, the way your family has been.
December 30, 2010 at 2:12 pm |
dear jerel, i don’t know you personally but i have met susan through dumc preschool and luke is in my son’s class this year. our family has been praying for susan and your family, as we follow susan’s journey and i am amazed by susan and your family’s grace and relentless faith during this extremely difficult time; you all are an absolute inspiration to me. you have so many people who love all of you and we are lifting you up in prayer right now. sending our prayers and love to you, susan, your beautiful children and family. may the lord continue to comfort and guide you with love and peace today and always.
December 30, 2010 at 2:26 pm |
I am praying MUCH. Thanks so much for keeping us all informed with the latest. My heart is breaking for each member of the family….
December 30, 2010 at 4:13 pm |
Storming heaven for your wife, you, the children, and all connected to you. We have never met but many of my friends know you all and have been keeping us updated on Facebook and through phone calls.
My heart breaks for you all. God is in this storm. I know. I have been exactly where you are.
December 30, 2010 at 5:40 pm |
It’s very difficult to convey our feelings just know we love you and continue to pray for your entire family.
December 30, 2010 at 6:32 pm |
I have just read your blog for the past week. What a
blessing this has to be to all who read it! You are so positive in
the midst of your heavy heart and tremendous responsibilities. You
and your whole family have been in our prayers. Thank you for your
insightful writing, for the Christmas time at the hospital with the
family together and for the love which shines as you write so
lovingly of Susan.
December 30, 2010 at 7:10 pm |
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December 30, 2010 at 8:57 pm |
Jerel and family, I am in pray for you all tonight. My
heart is heavy for your pain. Susan is blessed to having you at her
side and knowing she is well loved the whole time. Please let me
know if you need anything. I know you have many people there to
help but count on me if you need anything. In Christ holy name, Amy
Dodson
December 30, 2010 at 9:30 pm |
Praying for all of you – for strength and beauty in each
moment you have together. Prayers for trust that God goes ahead of
you each step of the way. Praying that “you will go out in joy and
be led forth in peace.” Is. 55:12 I am remembering so many moments
of laughter with Susan. Her joy – God’s joy – lives beyond cancer.
We love you so much.
December 30, 2010 at 10:01 pm |
I have added your family to my daily prayer request by a FB
request from Sherrie Cockram. She also included a link to your
blog. I have been reading this blog and wish I could take your pain
away. I will continue to pray.
December 30, 2010 at 10:07 pm |
Dearest Law family, My grandmother passed away 2 years ago,
but we still get great peace from her daily calendar with thoughts
of God. Two days ago, when I heard that your family’s battle with
cancer had begun making a turn for the worse, the page said this:
“Relationships are eternal: separation does not mean separation of
our souls. Someone’s leaving feels like the greatest pain we have
ever suffered. But our relationships do not die; they just change
form. Faith means knowing that no one is ever really gone.” Please
know that more people than you will ever even realize are lifting
every single one of you up in prayer now and in the coming months.
Peace be with you.
December 30, 2010 at 10:52 pm |
I am in Sam and Mariet’s grace group in Memphis. I have
been following your posts and lost my dad from a very agressive
liver cancer last year, he was 52 , his story was much different.
One verse, I did feel compelled to share that my dad found comfort
in hearing his last days was : You, dear children, are from God and
have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than
the one who is in the world. John 4:4 Prayers for you and your
family during this time. It is evident that in this heartbreaking
time that God is using Susan and you and your family for his glory
and for a much bigger purpose, I can see that, and I do not even
know you.
December 31, 2010 at 1:30 am |
Praying for you, Susan, your children and your family.
Thank you for your beautiful blog and for allowing me to follow
this journey. Lifting all of you up in prayer for strength, peace,
and that you will feel God’s love and presence in the coming
days.